School- I took some photos for the school's play which is going to be Shrek. And me and a few others were drawing the outlines of the backgrounds and today my teacher who works with the musical, told em she wants me to draw the back grounds. me. she told me not anyone else, somehow me. cus she liked my art. and i was touched. i am sorry i had to brag XD but im exited and scared for it XD
i had school, and this is the day that "Awesome" was moving away. So we went trick or treating with a few friends and i have to admit, trick or treating with someone you like, but will miss so awfully much, it has a twist of fun and a touch of sadness....
so yea, I was praying to see him once more before he left, and when i came back from school, i called him and he came over. I was so happy! and sad us he had...about 2 hours... i talk about it later cus i have 2 things to talk about.
Alright, so i was teared up a bit whne i got to the Youth Group tonight. it was around 7:40 and yea. i spotted my friend, Starscreamlover and so i was with her. i told her a bit of what haooened tonightnad i hope she will keep it to herself. But yea, then while walkign around cus i lost the game that the group was playing, i spotted a few members of the band that was preforming, Cities Under Fire. I remmeber seeing them at a Youth thing back...i dunno a year or two ago...maybe almost 3! But i remembered them from something called EPIK.
Blah blah blah, anyway so i was going to go tell Starscream lover something in private but i needed to find her first, so i was going to go by the washrooms and then i noticed someone was ahead of me and was holding the door or me. i looked up and saw the singer of the band in front of me. then i saw SSL and then i was like "hey!" and he turned. He said hi back and i asked if he recognized me and he said i looked familiar, i told him my name after he asked for it, and then he remembered i think. So yea! then the bnd played and i lost my voice from screaming and jumping around! i was a bit upset that my camera died and missed Awesome, i even imagined him there to see if that would help a bit. then we had snacks and i drew a picture for the band and they seemed to like it XD YAY they got fan art XD
so yea, the i got a cd <3 and i got a hug as well.
i was happy though...then i went home and i continue in the next part of my journal.... us it has to do with Awesome
(what i was talking a bit about earlier, if you don't care for this stuff don't read it then, im not making you XD)
So yea it was fun...ish till he had to go. I hugged him and didn't want him to go, i even glomped him and he caught me and held me close and tight. i would miss that. Details i wont add, but wow
....i am still shy and a bit frozen. I didnt expect that...
But Being in his arms again like that felt nice, i knew i would miss him alot. So yea, he told me to respond to his messages on FB cus he sent me alot apparently, so yea.
he left around 7, and when he left, we were by a road and i didn't want to let go of him. i didn't want to have to watch him go, i didst want to turn around and walk away either, and i tried not to cry, but that failed. he was hugging me and i just couldn't hold it in. he is amazing though, he told me not to cry and he had such a calm voice and it was...i had to stop. i instantly calmed down that way he....details but i felt like a kitty or something i got my hair petted to calm me down XD
anyway yea so he had to go so i watched him, he also gave me one of his sweaters... i just watched as he walked away...
i thought of something. like this will be my last time watching him walk away like this...i wanted him to turn around, wave once last time.... but that changed a bit when i started to think. I watched as he walked away...and i held his sweater close and started to cry. i stood there and i couldn't tell if i was shaking cu i was crying or did the cold add to it too.
a month may be a short while, but i mean i missed him so much so quickly and i know its the same for him. i know in december he might visit so i was happy about that.
ill miss him and look forward to seeing him, also im proud of him! i want to hug him again now,
He even prayed (to see me again....) but yay im happy! im also sad to have him go and it hurts to think of him being gone....
but he will come back and i will keep praying and hoping the best for him and for seeing him again.
OK now im lazy and will watch anime with my older brother Nintendosensei77